#DOITAFRAID

For a couple months I worked on this video project documenting the UNYC x TSF Español missions trip to Puerto Rico in January. I’m glad I finally finished it and released it to the world last week. But to be honest I felt kind of disappointed, frustrated, unsatisfied about the way it was coming out.

Part of me knew I could have or should have done things differently. I over analyzed the details that I missed and the things I didn’t do. I almost didn’t want to put it out. Made excuses to and for myself. 

I found myself easily distracted even after being determined to get home from work to WORK on this video. I tried to learn the program on the go and I would get the hang of some things and then a week or two would go by until I sat in front of the screen again. I struggled with the thought of people criticizing it too much even though I knew I was doing this all by myself. Not because people didn’t want to help me. But because I kinda chose to challenge myself to do it alone.

I also wasn’t sure what to really do with it once I was done. Should I promo it more?? (NO DUDE ITS ALREADY BEEN THREE MONTHS SINCE THE TRIP PEOPLE ARE GOING TO FORGET AND NOT CARE!) Should I make an elaborate announcement for the release? What is the post going to say? Should I add English subtitles/captions? A bunch of questions would keep me in front of the screen for hours sometimes not doing much and being distracted.

Thankfully my wife encouraged and supported me as best she could and tried to give me confidence even if she didn’t know how much I was struggling inside. My mom shared her sentiments every time she reviewed the project to spell check for me. And even up to the last day of editing on FaceTime she helped me edit the CC for the YouTube line by line.

The video has been out for a week now and it’s slowly been a sigh of relief but also has ignited something inside me. I can’t fully explain it right now but I just know that I need to work on myself more. Specifically with my time management and being disciplined about any of my next steps.

I’ll say this; (and everything else you just read...thank you) I don’t want to give up on my creative ideas. I want to learn more. I want to overcome the distractions that try to slow me down. I will be more disciplined. I will manage my time better. I am going to start and finish another project.

I am grateful for the lessons, small or large, that God continues to present to me. I hope you don’t give up on your projects. I hope you continue to believe in yourself. I pray that you find new inspiration and strive to learn more. No matter your age or current circumstances, you CAN.

Like I heard before and repeat to myself, “DO IT AFRAID!”

#UNYC #iamUNYC #DoItAfraid

Check out the video here! #SOMOSFAMILIA